Mood Swing

i sometimes wonder if the quality of my life would be vastly improved if i were medicated. this morning, once i stepped outside of my door, everything annoyed me. i rode the T in today, since i slept at the apartment last night, and maybe because i don't ride the T very often anymore, maybe i just forgot how annoying the B line can be. the new green line trains are insanely slow. should it take me longer to commute 2.5 miles than it takes for me to drive 30? no, i don't think so. and the driver -- i wanted to slap him. i understand that his job must be difficult at times. but if you aren't good with people, you shouldn't be interacting with them. i mean, doesn't the mbta have a nice back room somewhere for him? don't even get me started on the other passengers. maybe i wasn't the only one "annoyed." once at work, it just got worse. i'm not a big fan of incompetence or people not giving the old college try before whining for help. maybe it's just a pride thing, but i like to try and figure something out first (or read an email maybe) before i get on the phone and start crying about how i can't figure out something out. PAY ATTENTION PEOPLE -- IT'S ALL THERE -- YOU JUST HAVE TO READ THE FRIGGIN' EMAILS. does that make me sound like a bitch? perhaps. but you know what? i wouldn't call you before exhausting the possibilities.... i value your time too much. anyway -- if i were medicated, i wouldn't get so annoyed at things i have no control over and i wouldn't feel so guilty about feeling so annoyed. because you see, i really want people to like me. can i take medication for the guilt problem?

then at lunchtime we had a speaker come in. so i got annoyed when the president of the company's wife asked me if i was busy five minutes before the talk because she needed help with the snacks. now, i don't suffer from delusions of grandeur where i think i'm too busy to lay out fruit salad. if she had asked me now, when i was updating my blog, i would have stopped blogging immediately and helped her out. but i do get annoyed when i'm deep in conversation with a programmer about data reports and procedures that i need to understand so that i can talk about this stuff intelligently during an afternoon conference call. did the company president's wife know that what i was doing was work-related and important? probably not. but it's not something she would have thought of anyway. sometimes i think that she doesn't realize that people have real work to do and that this place isn't an extension of her family and home life, but an actual place of business.

it's almost the end of the day though. and that's improved my mood a tad. i'm meeting a realtor tonight to have her look at my place and determine how much it should go on the market for. (i know i ended the sentence with a preposition. i know, it annoys me too). i'm starting to get a little nervous. i know it'll go for a good price. that's the way the market is these days. but i'm really worried that she'll have a laundry list of tasks that i need to do. i'm already working on a house. i really really don't want to have to work on this apartment. i mean when i decided to make an offer on this place 6 years ago, there was dirty underwear on the floor, crusty old wall to wall carpeting on the bedroom floors (why people -- why cover beautiful hardwood floors with dusty rose wall to wall carpeting), and it smelled of fish! i promise you -- there will not be any dirty underwear on my floors! oh well. we'll see.

it's not all bad though.

for you football/soccer buffs (if you even exist) France has advanced to the quarter finals by winning their group (with England 2nd). France will be playing Greece. i'm not one to count my chickens, but on paper, france looks like an overwhelming favorite. the big shocker in this tournament so far, is that Italy is going home early. heh heh.

i finished the back of the va-va voom tank and started the front last night -- if i continue at this rate i should have it done by friday. and maybe it'll look good enough to wear. but that's a big maybe.

this happened today. that's all we would need. mitt romney appointing one of his anti gay-marriage cronies sitting in the US senate if kerry won the presidency. at least it looks as if this might not happen. i still can't believe that this guy is our governer.

i rented Big Fish last night. and i thought it was nice. and i did shed a tear. but i didn't think it was great. maybe it's because i didn't see it in a theatre. tonight i have "bend it like beckham" on the agenda. tv really sucks these days.

and finally, i end this rant-filled post with this.....being a mini-owner i get periodic emails from both the mini people and my dealer. look at what they sent me...

bastards.