11 More Days

i had big plans for christmas this year.  lots of holiday knitting from handknit holidays.  "perfect" gift ideas for family and friends.  decorating the house weeks in advance.  i really was going to do it up this year.  with my birthday also 6 days away, december is my month!  it's the month i wait for every year in anticipation!

well this year i've got nothing.

house, not decorated.  no tree yet.  i have a fake tree in the basement, but j wants a real tree this year.  however, we still can't coordinate ourselves to get a tree together.  he blames the date with my boyfriend saturday when i didn't get home until after midnight.  (good times by the way, i have to show you what i got in the yankee swap).

fun knitting, not happening.  i told myself i wasn't going to do any christmas knitting for other people this year.  and yet, here i am knitting scarves again.  not caring about the scarves.  just trying to push through.  getting home from work and too tired to knit at all.  last night i was in bed before 9pm.    all of this is even more tragic considering how excited i am about the latest issues of both knitty and crochetme.  (one thing not so excited about, the premiere issue of vogue's KnitSimple.  it was delivered to my door.  wouldn't have it otherwise because it would never have made it into my shopping cart.  maybe i signed up for a copy.  no idea. can't remember.  i can't remember a lot of things these days.)

baking.  not done yet.  earlier this month i was all excited about baking cookies and making fudge for gifts at work and in the neighborhood.  now, don't feel like doing it.  i spent 45 minutes at the craft store the other night contemplating the various containers available for packaging.  ended up leaving the store empty handed because i couldn't bear to stand in line at the register.  this morning, i have to mail a package to my niece (a college finals care package) and i know i'm going to want to poke my eye out when i see the line at the post office.  a lot of wanting to poke my eye out going on these days.

finally, i still have tons of christmas shopping to do and i couldn't care less.  j told me that he didn't want an ipod.  SO NOW WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO GET HIM!!!????  inlaws are getting meat.  nieces and nephews -- gift cards.  i usually work so hard at trying to put together the perfect gift and this year,  i can't handle the pressure.  maybe those weirdos who are done with their christmas shopping in july have something there.    if you're one of those weirdos, i mean no disrespect, but you are a weirdo.  i'm not taking that back.  weirdo.

ok, i've got to go to work. 

i leave you with the picture that i used for our christmas cards this year (still not sent by the way).  the cards came out great.  better than i anticipated.   i love it when that happens.

isn't that a cool picture?  brrrr.