just maryse

Thank You All

I just wanted to let you all know how much your kind words of support meant to me.  I meant to thank you all individually, but whenever I tried to respond I just kind of would end up crying.

My time in France was less about healing, and more about grieving -- remembering the first time i brought him to meet my family;  and the trip we took when we brought our nieces over 4 years ago, and finally, last year, when he promied me we would be together forever.  And although I've been back in the States for only 3 hours, I know my marriage is over.  I had a sliver of hope that he might miss me but it appears that he did not. 

I'm going to try and not make this a blog about divorce, because you know, that would suck.

Thanks again.  I only wish I could fully express how touched I am by all of you.

Ce N'est Q'un Au Revoir

this is a difficult post for me to write as i'm not one to share really personal stuff about my life in this forum.  it's not that i'm a particularly private person myself.   i'll pretty much tell you anything you want to know face-to-face.  the internet though still scares me a little.

but this latest news is so huge and so devastating to me that i need to put it out there or i'll burst with sorrow.  my husband of almost 7 years has told me he wants a divorce and i've never felt so broken in my entire life.  i waited a long time for him and despite the difficulties we've been having, he still is the love of my life.  that he doesn't feel the same anymore breaks my heart. 

later on today, i'm going home to france for 10 days while he stays here and maybe reflects on what life might be like without me around.  i'm not hopeful that anything will change.

i'm a strong person. i know i will survive this.  and i might even end up stronger on the other side. i guarantee though, that i will never be the same.

thanks for indulging me.